Sometimes things just don't work out. You make a plan and have this life you envision for yourself and it just never happens.
For us- We were going to start trying for a baby and be pregnant by January or February of 2012. I was going to walk through graduation pregnant and then we'd move to Utah and then i'd have a baby and be a mom and have the perfect life. Well days and months blended together and now i'm on what seems to be a million pills. Every month I think "this will be the month! I feel a little different this time!" And each month i'm disappointed. Today, my doctor called and said that the pills aren't working and that she has to hash out a new plan.
I wonder how long Shane and I will keep trying. How many foreign pills should I be putting into my body. Now, we have to make the decision if we would choose in-vitro or adoption. Sometimes things just don't work out.
What gets me through all of this is knowing that I will someday have a child- no matter what. Maybe my stomach won't stretch to capacity, or my ankles won't swell up- I can still do Foster care, or be lucky enough to adopt!